Bah Humbug, Happy Holidays
I really hate The Holidays. I haven’t had a family Christmas in decades. It’s freaking lonely.
I really hate The Holidays. I haven’t had a family Christmas in decades. It’s freaking lonely.
I still have lots more work to do in order to make room for the TV etc.
yeah I thought I’d ramble a bit.
I spent the past few hours reading new and old messages in various Poser forums. I was reminded of good and bad memories.
I was reminded that many people appreciated my efforts to make Poser easier to understand. It felt good to see at least one software writer appreciated my efforts in his behalf.
The negative forum posts hurt almost as bad today as they did years ago. So many people decided there was something wrong with me, and wouldn’t listen to reason. Yes, I had some challenges of my own, but I never stopped trying to overcome the problems, and I kept on creating new tutorials for years afterward. I finally gave up because it hurt to help a community that would not allow me to be a member.
I’ve had a couple rough months, to say the least. I haven’t shared all the details. The reason is simple. I’ve decided to be a bit more selective about the personal information I share with online friends and family.
Far too many people have taken my personal information and experiences, and thrown them back into my face. Even my Dad has done it. So many of these people ignore all the good I’ve done, and just concentrate on whatever news they can warp into their own personal crusade against me.
I’ve seen people make lists of all the negative stuff I’ve done. A list of minor disagreements, or troll attempts against me, my failure to pay a bill, etc. All these facts or perceptions are merged into a list of reasons why I’m allegedly a bad person and deserve to be driven off the Internet, etc. The constant attacks cause me great emotional and physical pain.
I remember some of the silly and expensive things I wanted to do in order to make better YouTube videos, live shows, etc.